30 January 2007
Slept at 4am on Monday and woke up at 6.30am to get prepared to meet JJ in school for accounts paper revision. Met lil' Bernice in the MRT, she has got her hair trimmed. Was a nice haircut. =) Met up with JJ and didn't really teach her much either. Lunch thought I was hungry but after eating a lil' discovered that I'm full. Think I lost my appetite again. Accounts class feeling so sleepy, but endured even till end of Auditing class at 4pm. Initially was thinking of running away from Audit class, but I must say though sometimes I appeared to dislike Sim's attitude but she's indeed a caring lecturer, she's so motherly that I did thought of saying all things out to her. I just felt so comfortable with her... so I decided to walk back and attend her class. Was a short recap questions for us. Despite of stupid mistakes I committed, she still sat down beside us going through one by one with us. And I've got a clearer idea of what each techniques objective are. Get back home to shower and had a quick dinner and m out to work. I so damn hell tiring. Reached home, mummy told me that she couldn't find her key. She thought Pearl might misplace it in her school bag so I accompanied her to sis house. Didn't manage to find it, but I did had a good time talking to my elder brother, I just miss him so much. Hmm, came back was already dead beat but still I wanna help mummy to find her key, as each time I couldn't find anything, mummy was the one who search the entire house for me. And I found it in the sofa. Think she's old.. one week she can knock unto door glasses and refrigerator. Her head kinda swollen and I'm extremely exhausted to rub it for her. I hope she' d be more careful next time.
Tomorrow still 've to bring cigarette for dad at NUH before school. That's an order from him... what else can I say. Kkx, wanna orh orh le.
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00:14
28 January 2007
I do not know what I've done wrong again. There's job last night and I really wish to work but he asked me to stayed at home to revise for Monday paper. My thinking is, ' last min work doesn't work on me ' so all along I've been revising yet why can't you let me work when the next day is Sunday? What more do you want when I already stayed at home? Whats the different calling you at noon and informing you when you're back? Why must others call and tell you there's work and you'd believe? Why things I said you always don't believe? Why must you utter all sort of rubbish like saying I want to go work because of Xiao Zhu? Why must you say that I always want to make you angry when you're the one who starts nonsense first? I thought I could work and could bring you out to celebrate your birthday, but... now did you see the great disappointment in me? You know even well than mummy that my paper is on this coming Monday yet why can't you just drop the matter when I'm already in my room revising? And don't you think you're stupid to bang your head against the wall? And you said you deliberately to be angry see if you'd just die because of hypertension. Bang to see if you'd die. Aha, how amusing it's. And why suddenly become so calm down when mom cries? Why don't you be the one to please her not to go? Mummy stays here because of me, and that goes the same as me. Don't drive us nut. And I do, seriously pity you and not looking down on you. Bear in mind, without Mummy and I you won't be able to survive. I only take the money when I work, so don't bother to pay up my lost. Stupido affect my mood in revising...
I'm afraid the answer script 'd be blank tml
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09:42
27 January 2007
Finally m done with clearning up unwanted documents in my pc. So shall have a quick bath and starts my revision.
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12:57
26 January 2007
This morning during Accounts class Mr Cheo was totally behaving like a mad childish lecturer. He was disturbing us by turning our chairs he said: "All of you're graduating, cannot let you guys off!" Even Ms Choo's not helping us, =( He was asking me why do I love donut balls so much I told him is nice but he reminded me is unhealthy, so maria mum, don't buy donut le hor? Thanks for the treat!
Had a fabulous lunch with kakis, Amenda, Kenneath, and E'berth. Think K'neath and E'berth can go and flim those 'just for laugh' variety show. Went for auditing and we were asked to do the tutorial.
Reached home saw mummy dress up she asked me if I'm free to go out with her awhile. Think I was too forgetful as I left my hp at home. As expected I'd receive miss call from him. As soon as I reached home with mum, I called him back and he already shouted like mad.
He: "Why everytime I call you don't want to ans"
Me: "I forget to bring my hp out"
He: "Then why you take hp?" [Wait! Whats has it got to do with whether I owe a hp or not]
Me: "I said I forget to bring it out, how m I suppose to ans ur call? Human beings do forget things."
He: "Friend ask you out, you disappear in less than a second"
Me thinking, what has to do with my friend again?
He: "I thought you 'll reach Jur around 3pm+ wanna ask you packet fried rice"
Me: "If you want, I can go and buy for you now"
He: "Don't need*3... I'm full with anger now"
When he made a second call back, scolded me again. Mom took over and shouted at him, whats on earth he want? Then finally he kept his mouth shut! When he reached home, he pretend that he never scold me, say he can't hear me thats why must use lots of energy/force to talk. SHIT is all SHIT. What a lousy explanation, u're just so F.A.K.E! You're sucks ok? Such a disgrace to 've someone like you staying with us. I think even I'd afford just a month rental outside, i'll still wanna move out temporary and think of a solu at a later time. Watch and see, I'll leave u.
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19:09
25 January 2007
I think I'm really going mad. Seriously I do not know who touched my phone when it's charging last night. No wonder I find it so weird when friend sms me saying that I send the balance sheet to the wrong person. And another friend called asked if I called him last night around 2am+ when I'm already slept like a log pig. Is there a need to ask brother, I doubt... then it must be that idiotic. And he breaks my hp accessories! I shouldn't treat him too nice, as he always took it for granted. If he were to throw me out of this home, I'm not going back not even to visit my mom. Fuck
Went down to take my pay, but sotong him never bring out with him. But can't fully blame him as I didn't inform him that i'll be down today. Waste trip* Think it 'll be bank in into my accounts. Sians, still 've to do transfer as friend pay will be credited into my account as well. I think I'm still feeling sad over yesterday's thing. I'm stupid, I shouldn't 've say it to mom when she's already so disheartening.
I nearly went mad when I receive another sms from friend saying that I called her at 3am last night. I cried, I hit the wall. Afterall it weren't that pain as compare to the pain in my heart. Can someone teach me how to continue to endure things like this? Can someone please pull me up to mug for CAII on Monday? I can't be strong, I can no longer be strong... cuz I'm going real mad.
心里的痛恨有谁能理解？
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11:40
24 January 2007
Was late for Monday class as I was having gastric before leaving home for S&W class @ 9am. Ran 2.4km and missed the game they played. I felt like a fool travelling all the way from Jur to sch just for 2hours lessons. I went because I thought that is a test which I'm dying to take, but there isn't any.
Yesterday by right should be me accompany Doreen to take her commission at Ginny's office. But it was vice versa. I thought I've took all the commission, but there're 2 cheques with her. *Yippy. Actually wanna have lunch together with her, but as we lost our way so end up late for accpac as well. I always thought I've the courage to drop by his workplace to see how he has been doing. But... avoid is what I did. Anyway, ordered pizza for brother, my treat. =) Kinda of piss off by his words: "Why didn't you eat more during dinner time?" Please! Brother's the one who wanna eat, and I'm the one paying it, can't you just shut your mouth up?
This morning was having gastric again. I wonder why... why lately keep on having gastric pain. ='(
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09:15
21 January 2007
Gosh is already 2.10pm and I just woke up? I think tonight I won't be able to turn in early, so how m I able to wake up at 6 tomorrow morning? By right should be meeting cousin for jog at JSC but both of us overslept. Think tomorrow 'd be meeting her in the evening eh? Hope so, then also hope that tomorrow S&W class 'd be jogging full 6 rounds eh? Wahaha... just miss jogging so much!
I think for the first time you guys gonna hear me saying that I seriously do love my brother so much! Oh goodness! How can I miss out to buy 4D? After been brother n sister with him for near 20years, is the first time that he's getting me lunch! Muackx... Oh yah, he's willing to travel cuz he has got the bike. So why be so elated?
Alright m off to mug.
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15:11
20 January 2007
I think lately I've this bad habit of slacking in the evening and starts mugging only at midnight. Perhaps, this is the reason that caused me to be extremely exhausted nowadays. N might be the reason that I lost my concentration when revising. *Yawn. Yesterday night there was this cartoon flim titled "千与千寻" who watched it? Was a cute and funny one =)
Revision was a great one last night though woke up at 6 but turning in only at 2am
Anyway, why my niece parents only care about earning money when she's sick at the childcare? Niece was specially obedient when she's sick. I think she was running fever, hope she recover soon. Sometimes I just wonder why people can't just SHUT their mouth up when they do not know whats exactly happening? And sometimes I just wish that how nice it's gonna be if I'm deaf.
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10:50
19 January 2007
Madness, I miss out the promotion! Aww... ;( Starhub is having a promotion for SE K800i @ only $248 more over I've got $50 voucher as a birthday gift last year from my dearest friends, and whats e joy? I'd use that to net off and I'd get the phone with 2years contract at only $198!!! Is even cheaper than my current phone that I'm using. So I'm really dying to buy it but is out of stock in all starhub outlets! Why didn't I know the promotion on 13th Jan? I think over the one that I really love (Samsung E900) I'll still dead set on getting SE K800i now, for I don't change my phone unless it spoilt or super duper damn worth buy period, I'll get it changed. Therefore, I definitely need to get a phone which has a better functions rather than having a more elegant and classic look. So when 'll the stock be coming, and when 'll there be another duper dirt cheap promotion like.. this week?
I swear no matter how cheap both Singtel and M1 is offering the K800i I'll still not want it. I'll stick with starhub :)
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19:03
17 January 2007
Overslept this morning think was because I stayed up till 2am to do my accounts. If I were to take the same bus with Yi Wen they all, I won't be ending up in cabby. After the account lecture ended, I reflected the attitude I showed last few weeks especially to the most sweet caring kakia of mine. I did apologised to her and she's always so kind in nature that she didn't take it to heart at all. I felt awfully bad, I shouldn't have let my anger to control my emotion. I promise, I won't do that again.
Didn't do much for Case Studies during Audit class. But nearly fall out with one of my closest kakis of the too straight forward remark that I've remarked. I wasn't saying that she's in fault, but she ought to do what she's told (to recheck their work) but she seems to be a lil' hesitating and Sim's asked me to check but for what? I don't even know hear the explanation for the prepayment part. Only CH, JJ or herself has the right to recheck the work they've done. She don't owe me any apologies as I'm the one who started first. But neither nor I owe her any apologies, as I said.. I wasn't saying that she's in fault and is just a remark that hurts. I'm aware having such a temperamental attitude is very serious, and is not right to say that I'm changing for the sake of any one of you.. as it's for my own good in future. But for now, I'm really too vexed up, accept me for who I'm or leave me.
After knowing the fact that happened to her, I realised that I'm a big failure for not knowing what exactly had happened to her. Knowing everything of hers, there's nothing I could do to help right now. All I could do is to pray for a - result. I won't say that she's cheap, bitch nor slut for I'm aware that only love could cause such a big sacrifices. I'm waiting for you to tell me personally.
-Pressurized, stressed, vexed up.
Brother just fell down from bike in his first time driving in highway just now. Sighs... sians.
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16:40
16 January 2007
Yesterday was so exhausted that I skipped the Audit Class and the other girls follow suits. Feel kinda bad and guilty. Fall asleep in the train and there's this lady who woke me up as if she knows me so well. Pad*3, reach already. I told my brother, he said if this happens to him he'll say that he's going to pasir ris. Hahax. Been doing the additional accounts question but couldn't get the key answer, hell. CA is less coming less than 2weeks, how? In class, I always know how to do it. Is not because I follow Ms Choo, I wasn't. I was always ahead of her when she's guiding the class. But why when I was at home, I can't do it myself?
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11:03
14 January 2007
Ooo... I'm dead beat from shopping! Anyway perhaps I'm too sensitive, or I do not understand her well or I'm not born to please her. Whatever it's. I saw this Carlo Rino small sling bag super duper nice but is ex. Well spent evening with 'em but extremely bloated, I guess I've put on weights. Tomorrow there gonna be a Bank Rec class test, I've totally forgotten how to do it. So, I'm well prepared to flunk the paper. Perhaps... I might submit just an empty script. Tired, I wanna sleep!!!
Total shopping expenses for this evening: 130Bucks [Just some lingeries n pair of shoes]
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22:32
Friendster was like bloody shit, took the entire night yet still couldn't get my profile edited till the way I like it. Hell... anyway, yesterday sucks and I do not wish to blog about. All I know now is that, both my foot toes have 2 gigantic blisters is f****** hell pain! Tomorrow I swear I wanna go get a new pair of school shoes, who asked me to have threw away the old one. Whatever it's, that old pair of shoes is not surpose to wear by human. School friend should know how pathetic pair of shoes I've been wearing. Alright should pretend to sleep cuz he going to wake up soon.
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04:38
13 January 2007
I still remember last year of today I was having taxation paper and you didn't sleep the whole night even you're having fever as you're afraid that you couldn't wake me up in the morning. Silly* Think that day I was working as well, but went back home earlier. Sms you and you took quite long to reply back but fortunately I took the last train to your house. =) Count myself having a good memory, still remember that night was so brezzy and I was waiting for you downstairs. Was wondering, have you fallen asleep was pretty afraid that I might be sitting down there alone the entire night. But I was wrong, you came down shortly. =)
Was alone in your room while you were in the living room playing PS soccer with your brother. Never will I forget how you cuddled me, using your arm to push my head that my lip actually touched your face. You were fast asleep after the hug and good night kiss. Think I only manage to sleep in the morning when I heard your dad brushing his teeth. That day was like I sleep, you woke up, you sleep, I woke up. When I was about to leave secretly in the evening, I asked your lil' brother for hankerchief but no respone. Guess he was frightened by me. Asked from your mom, and I placed the wet hankerchief on your forehead. Then I realised that your whole family was going out for dinner. So decided to stay and look after you, from 5+ you slept till 8+ when I jumped up on your bed as I really saw a cockroach but you didn't see. In between of the hours, I thought of buying you congee and feed you on your bed, but I was so unfamiliar with the market. I regretted, seriously I do. I should have buy dinner for you but I didn't. ;( After your brushing up, accompained you to place bet on soccer and you send me to the control. You're so caring, you asked me to go back as you're afraid that my parents 'd be worried for me when I told you I wanna send you back home first. As I was afraid that you can't walk properly as you're still having fever. :)
Barbell dropped into the basin... sob**
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11:23
12 January 2007
Last night he came into my room and asked what did mom told me, I told him nothing he don't believe. Think because of that, I'm so stressed that I didn't sleep well last night and resulted that I'm late for class this morning. Hell...
Was fast asleep when I found myself a seat in the train until when I was reached Tanah Merah granny called and we had a short conversation. She asked me: "Why did I gave him the money infront of mom" I went totally speechless, if I'm aware that things gonna turns out like this [cold war] do you think that I still wanna deliberately give infront of her? Mummy is not jealouse of that lil' sum, but her heart pain as I only earn lil' bit yet have to give him money. Tomorrow granny asking me out for dinner at MS and seriously I'm dying to go.
Everything is temporary fine at home, I hope it remains like this throughout the whole year.
He: hey
He: wad happen just now?
He: and y u unhappy now?
Me: Hello, p.s not sure wad happen jux now.
Me: hees.
He: oic...
He: then y u unhappy?
Me: Hmm, unhappy cuz family happen lots of things...
Me: V vexed up, confused n lost nia...
Me: Affect my mood in studying...
Me: Aniwae, no k/d matter, I miss u as a friend... hees
He:: haha..
He: miss me just say miss me will do de ma.. no need to put miss as a friend
He: =)
Me: u arh... i scare wait i say i miss u thn u keep quiet thn offline... like kena frightened mah... haa...
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15:49
11 January 2007
Lately been having running nose when I was about to sleep. N definitely that makes me suffer from insomnia. I was kind of forturnate to have Mummy to keep on waking me up till I fed up and get up right now before she leave home to work. That's because she don't want me to miss school any more. Well, I can't hide from her whether I went school or not. Just like yesterday, I told her I went, but she said I didn't. Even he's aware about it, scared*
It has been about 8months but things hasn't change for me. Why m I still missing the one so much that I would think over the past and cried silently late in e night? You've said something which I agreed with you but why, why I can't accept the reality?
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08:28
10 January 2007
Yawn* Dear is already 11:48pm and I just woke up. Argh madness, I didn't go school this morning. Obviously I didn't sleep well last night cuz was having flu and I think I'm falling sick again, cuz my eyes has been itchy and my throat has been pretty dry. Feel so relunctant to tidy my bed, to shower. -.-"
Girls called me to go to the school prom night, but brain dead couldn't make up my mind yet. Hmm, exam coming.. having exam stress. Anyway later gonna take pay, and go to retake my photo for my passport, CNY think going back M'sia cuz missing my cousins. And I hope mummy 'd be coming out together with us.
Yesterday after visiting the ICA wanna go shop shop, but who asked me to wear brother sandal and happens that he's going out in the evening. So after paying the bills, dinner went back home straight le. Didn't even shop for CNY clothes. Perhaps... next pay.
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11:47
09 January 2007
20 more days 'd be having Accounting CAII, Mar we'd be having our final end module exam. After reading mummi bloggies, realised that time really flies fast. Soon we'd be graduating, some might continue to pursue their education, some might be just wishing to step into society world. What about me, whats my plan?
Although I really love money so much that I'd do anything, but I'll still wish to pursue my education in poly. Though current GPA might restrict my enrollment, but if I'm willing to work hard for this last semester, I believe with the average of 3.75 I stand a chance to get into the course that I desire. So what if my hard work paid off? My family couldn't afford my school fees, so whats the point day dreaming to get into poly? Perhaps, I might choose to work and get enrollement in to CATs, ACCA to get my degree. My mind always wishing to work in a factory as a operator or QA as I find that working in a factory can earn money faster than admin clerk, or accounts assistant. But all my family memebers objected, they don't see any future ahead of that line. Is true, but working in a office is my greatest fear for now.
Whatever it's, time for revision.
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19:42
08 January 2007
Alright here I'm back to blog, net has been down for past 2weeks and I almost died. School was pretty fun with the start off of Advance and concore game during Sports & Wellness followed by 6/8rounds of running in the carpark. Was sweating, but I love the feeling of sweating out. Hees, fall asleep during Auditing lecture cuz was too... boring? Or... perhaps, tired.
Not sure what she's so fed up about till she make me pek chey, make me so pissed off that I didn't take my lunch. Think the entire day, I've been drinking water to keep my stomach full. Hur.. anyway, scored pretty well for Auditing. *Pat on the shoulder* Way to go, way to go!
Reached home, dad boss son came over to repair my internet for me. In the end, was the microfilter that caused all these problems, sucks.
On cloud nine!
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21:56
070107
3rd JanWent back to TW to work morning shift. We missed the bus so decided to meet 'vin @ JE in the end he was late as well. Was about to walk to the canteen and we sawTB. TB: You come back to work morning shift?
Me: Yepp, third floor, media control.
TB: Oh... both of you [min n me] help me in 4th floor first.Think many people down there were surprised that we actually came back to work. Hurhur... especially Dennis eh?TB: Can both of you work for me after CNY?
Me: Huh? On the 8th we'd be leaving
TB: But I did told the HR that I want contractor who can work till CNY
Me: I lied to my agent that I still 've 2months hoiday
TB: Oh... but you all shouldn't 've lied, as I can tell the HR the fact and they can immediately ask you to leave.
Me: Huh... [Smiling still]
TB: Because it's not easy for us to train newbies... Ok, nvm... I'll see how again.
JM: JL, you teach your friend how to tick BOM first. After lunch then I'll bring her down to shipment.
Me: Orh... That day I think we work till 9.30pm, haha... workaholic eh? That's why he was so damn mad with me when I reached home. ='( 4th JanWork think was as usual fun. Just that something unpleasant happened again because of me. Whatever shit... 5th Jan Shrink wrap machine had been down almost the entire day. So we were like nothing to do at all, especially me. Around 6.30pm, Dennis walk towards me and said: "I think you're tired." Immediately I know he wants me to help him clear those reports on the tray. ='( Around 7.30 just finish one whole pile of report, he brought another stack of JM report as well. Wow, damn rush... he was like so free, talking to me... I was so afraid that I couldn't finish keying those reports, as he said he'll hammer me if I can't. Hees... squating beside me drinking his water he said: "She bu de ni" then I pretend never heard, I huh? He: "She bu de ni, you left, no people help me to record and key report.
Me: "Oh... you can teach newbie arh, teach Alvin [Think I've 4 friends call this name. -.-"
He: "Have arh... I'll...
He: "Last day no ferror roacher arh?"
Me: Orh... That day I think we work till 9.30pm, haha... workaholic eh? That's why he was so damn mad with me when I reached home. ='( 4th JanWork think was as usual fun. Just that something unpleasant happened again because of me. Whatever shit... 5th Jan Shrink wrap machine had been down almost the entire day. So we were like nothing to do at all, especially me. Around 6.30pm, Dennis walk towards me and said: "I think you're tired." Immediately I know he wants me to help him clear those reports on the tray. ='( Around 7.30 just finish one whole pile of report, he brought another stack of JM report as well. Wow, damn rush... he was like so free, talking to me... I was so afraid that I couldn't finish keying those reports, as he said he'll hammer me if I can't. Hees... squating beside me drinking his water he said: "She bu de ni" then I pretend never heard, I huh? He: "She bu de ni, you left, no people help me to record and key report.
Me: "Oh... you can teach newbie arh, teach Alvin [Think I've 4 friends call this name. -.-"
He: "Have arh... I'll...
He: "Last day no ferror roacher arh?"
Me: "Haha... wah.. cannot eat so much wait you headache"
He: "Won't de... "
Me: "I want to buy one but then when I reach home already very late, so..."
He: "So you mean you did thought of buying?"
Me: "No ley... I still own TT one only. But she say she don't want, cuz she wanna eat big prawns."
He: "Then I wanna eat big crabs..."
Me: "Huh...?!! Cannot! =) 8.30pm TB asked Dennis to work overtime to see them paste the DRM label. But Dennis say don't want, in the end all went back home at 8.30pm. Took pretty long time for the 176 to come, so saw Dennis and JM at the bus stop. He was super duper quiet, as we stood together at the center of the bus. Didn't talk much with him, min scolded me for not saying BB to him. Got lah, I intend to wait for the bus to stop then turn and say BB de. Hahax Hmm, 0701 'll never forget the day. Anyway, 'd be going to school for one hour lecture on Wednesday after that 'll be going back home. Cuz i've many things wanna do on that day.
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21:49
010107
Actually slept already but wake up to check my phone, saw Doreen sms. Chatted with her a lil' while then she go orh orh le. Hais, couldn't get back to sleep just like yesterday night [was awake at this hour too]. Was thinking of the past... Just read the article, think they were so contradicted. Uncertain when the network 'll be back, news yesterday said 3days, now article said 5days. N minimum 2weeks of repair, 3weeks to fully recover this entire network, hell. I always said I'm big enough to take care of myself. I'll buy my own meal when I'm hungry. I'll make a hot drink for myself when I feel cold.I'll take my med when I'm feeling unwell, yet why they always force me to eat when I'm not hungry? I damn hate being forced! Fucking hate my brother, he si bei damn attitude de. Owe me money say Friday get pay wanna return me, but today afternoon (sat) say no money to returnme, yet got money to buy 4D, 12bucks. Then that idiotic put the cement on the floor, don't know for what hell. Then cannot stepon it, was putting the yakult into the fridge then he wanna take his things from the chiller, then my yakult drop then he stood down there and give me attitude, then still don't wanna move away. Then only ask him to close the chiller door, give me attitude again. FUCK, don't ever borrow money from me.CCB. Don't like this home, ='(
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21:48
301206
Woke up at 1030am then saw Xue Ni sms says that Zhu didn't help me take my punch card, I was mad like hell then. So quickly wentfor a shower took cabby down to take from zhu. Before that, went to buy them Coco. Reached the canteen, couldn't find him then saw Johnnyasked him where's Zhu he said he haven't come down yet. After awhile, he came down. He explained that he wanna help me take last night but JM went back home le. He passed me the punch card n I pass him e cocojiu left to westmall to collect my x'mas gift up. Is a necklace, very nice. But is 925 sliver I sure cannot wear cuz skin allergy. My niece say she want, so I gave it to her. Yah, then headed to Percie house for BBQ, fun, enjoyed, full s well s stink. Hees.Went to pass Kelly her VCD at JP, been ages since we last meet. After whick went to pick up my niece since her parents both working OT. Nice evenin spent with her. Happy that my policy was terminated! Triump in the skies was so nice to watch! Anyway I lied to Terrace saying that I still 've 2 more mths of holiday as I wanna him help me to look for job. He said if I'm ablethen he can gurantee that I can starts work this Wed. N I said ok, he kept asking if I can wake up on time cuz 6am must leave homele, no transport. Sighs... should I tell him the truth? I discovered something, he has been putting newspaper articles on my table, s well s article beside my computer. Cuz he wanna let meknow that internet 'll be down for a couple more days due to the difficulties that TW is encounting. Sighs...I felt very frustrated when i payfor the internet yet can't use.
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21:47
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Bloody hell blogger, everytime down. Now down here at notepad bloggin, sians. Anyway, last night no work norhx. Haha, perhaps...Destined that Dennis shouldn't get the treat. Hees. Btw, that fellow chatting with me since I finish my dinner last night, think from 10.30pmtill 2am. Wah biang, he damn lor sor... he said lots of things including some encouragement in things that I do. But I only remember he saying that sometimes, he think back of whathe had done to me when he yi shi,shi qu li zhi, he regretted and he said to himself shouldn't 've acted implusively. I was like thinkinghow many times he really shi qu li zhi? Why there's only special care and control for girl? Is my thinking like what he said, simple?I've got my own characteristic, but why must he wanna me change? Glad that he's aware that I drink, but whats so bad about drinking?Hmm, sad thing is that he does not know that I actually smoke when feeling low. Hais, don't wanna say anything more. Btw, I dreamt of Dennis sms. He sent me a drawing by Xiao Zhu. With lurfe portrait drawn in a landscape layout. And hell shiton the remaining space of the white paper. Next was a picture took at wella salon, the salon was in red. [Thought wella usedpurple?] Anyway, why did he sent me that picture was because I asked him where did he found my punch card. He told me, that'swhere I've lost it. Haha, totally sucks this dream. Cuz there isn't any salon down there larhs. Madness. I really hope tonightthere's work. Cuz like I used to say, I not use to it to sit at home and relax. I wanna work and earn lots of money. But thistime round, I should save it up instead of spending it away, cuz CNY is coming soon. N he... have he forgotten that I once helpedhim to celebrate his birthday in S'pore s well s M'sia? We took pix s well, how can he say that I NEVER help him celebrate before? And mummy, I also celebrate for her 'bout 2-3years of her bdae. N I even brought herto eat outside on Mother's Day, a treat for brother in law, jie jie, dewey, vedelene, mummy marh. Wanna ask him along de, butmummy never tell him when I told her to call him along. Hell... Hope that blogger 'll be back SOON. I won't die w/o msn but i'd die w/o blogger. Damn, net work is even lag now. Heard from friend that taiwan or donno where de cable what thing happen then got earthquake gonna takes 3weeks to install everything back. Wa, that's hell damn long. Can't they be more efficient? Madness arh... sob sob ='( Hell ley, internet totally cannot be used. Sighs, I si bei damn bored at home nehx. ='( humphf. Not sure when 'll be back worx. Just been to jie jie house, e feeling so great. Still remember those days I been sleeping at her house with all the freedom. Unlike own house. Btw, that idiotic don't know how old am I worx, he thought I still 18, pls lor going to 20 on the next birthdayle. Hais... hmm... I miss chatting with Xue Ni on msn nehx, why must the internet be down at this point of time. Triump in skiesnice nice worx, think going to rent it to watch all episode again. Tomorrow gonna be busy, going down to westmall to collect my x'masgift, then going to pass my punch card to Terrace, then gonna help my elder brother to pay his hp bills, then going back home. 4pm gonnameet Kelly to pass her her VCD back. So pai sey to hold on for so long worx. Kkx, think my parents wanna orh orh lers. I hope internet 'll be back soon larh, no work, no net, I really wanna die ler. Hais...
I hope I'll luv myself more
21:45
261206Yesterday so shag worx, cuz I going to work place alone and I board the 6pm bus which results me to reach there before 7pm.Wah biang I alone sit down there playing my hp game till Dennis came out. I thought time up but not yet but still I went in and see if there's anything I can help first. In the end didn't help since morning shift QA was still there, end up chatting withJin Mei and Dennis. Iyo, madness... Dennis having headache so left home at 7.30pm then Jin Mei left at 11.15pm. Before she leave, she reminded Johnny to take care of me. Johnny stunned and said: "she should take care of me instead lah" Left me the only QA down there. Then whenever there's problem I've to solve it myself nehx. ='( Life w/o Tian Tian [Did I mention thatshe's clearing her annual leave? So she won't be coming any more, sigh.] is really miserable. I don't like to work with those china girls worx, they didn't check probably as I caught 2 boxes of missing 256 PID Label. Horrible eh? But can't blame them asthey work 24hours, yes 24hours with 2 breaks only. So I just remind them to check probably and didn't remark anything else. ButI wrote it as a remark for my QA [Jin Mei n Dennis] to see, see if they wanna highlight to the management, Jin Mei say she want to prove thatI'm doing my job mahs. Hees. Anyway, very nice of Johnny kept asking if I wanna eat last night. Johnny: "JL you wanna order anything to eat?"
Me: *Shake head*
Johnny: "Not hungry meh?"
Me: Taken my dinner at home already
Johnny: "Order lah, eat a lil'"
Me: "No friend accompany me eat ley" [Cuz those clock in 1030 by right no break one]
Johnny: "I accompany you eat larh"
Me: "Nvm I not hungry norhx."
Then he very lor sor ask again
He: "Really don't want eat?"
Then I joke with him
Me: "No money to eat ley, haven't get my salary"
Johnny: "You want eat or not, I buy for you"
Me: "Don't want, don't want. Kidding only
Then 2am he ask me again...
He: "Hungry or not?"
Me: "No arh..."
He: "Really arh?"
Me: "Yah"
He: "Sleepy or not?"
Me: "A lil'"
He down there simling only lor. I think he's in good mood worx, cuz he only after one week he talk to me. Hahax. He's nice larh... everybody there's nice. Just a few arrogant one. But I still enjoy working with all. Hees. This morning, Jin Mei reach workplace damn early norhx, think around 7am plus. She listen to my complaints then dismiss me already. I love her so much worx, unlike Dennis, 7.30am++ le still don't wanna let me off. Sometimes, still dare to mood swings. Iyo he arh... terrible larh. Today think because of that idiotic again, I lost my punch card. In the end asked Xue Ni to call Dennis cuz I p.s to call himto let him know that I lost it and ask if he's able to write a new record for me. After awhile, he called my hp and say... He: "JL, I found your punch card" [In a very elated tone]
Me: "Really arh? Where you found it?"
He: "Forgotten what he said le but is like wanna me reward him lidat"
Me: "Where you found it?"
He: "No lah, Xiao Zhu found it one"
Me: "Oh... then I should treat Xiao Zhu eat marhs."
He: "But now I help you keep one ley..."
Me: "You can don't keep for me marhs... Jin Mei can help me keep de"
He: "Iyo if I knew it earlier on... [Forgotten what he said again]
Me: "Haha..."
He: "Eee, never say thank you arh?"
Me: "Orh, thank you thank you"
He: "Iyo, lidat only arh?"
Me: "Hmm...?"
He: [Still waiting for my reward]
Me: "K lah, buy you dinner. You order I pay for you tonight"
He: "You got so good arh?"
Me: "Iyo, then what you want?"
Xue Ni added in say iyah kiss him lah kiss him lah
Me wanna use bottle to throw at her
Xue Ni: "What time liao, still don't wanna start work?"
Me: "Dennis, Xue Ni say you ley"
He: "Huh, what she say"
Me: "She say what time already still don't wanna start work"
He: "Haha... ok lah ok lah, don't chat with you already.Hee hee... " He very cute one, everytime joke with me. But he can mood swings one... just like what my closest kakis in school treat us. Kkx, wanna go orh orh lers. Hees, hope tonight got work so that I can buy them chocolate except Dennis cuz he headache mah. Plain water for him, hees.
Me: *Shake head*
Johnny: "Not hungry meh?"
Me: Taken my dinner at home already
Johnny: "Order lah, eat a lil'"
Me: "No friend accompany me eat ley" [Cuz those clock in 1030 by right no break one]
Johnny: "I accompany you eat larh"
Me: "Nvm I not hungry norhx."
Then he very lor sor ask again
He: "Really don't want eat?"
Then I joke with him
Me: "No money to eat ley, haven't get my salary"
Johnny: "You want eat or not, I buy for you"
Me: "Don't want, don't want. Kidding only
Then 2am he ask me again...
He: "Hungry or not?"
Me: "No arh..."
He: "Really arh?"
Me: "Yah"
He: "Sleepy or not?"
Me: "A lil'"
He down there simling only lor. I think he's in good mood worx, cuz he only after one week he talk to me. Hahax. He's nice larh... everybody there's nice. Just a few arrogant one. But I still enjoy working with all. Hees. This morning, Jin Mei reach workplace damn early norhx, think around 7am plus. She listen to my complaints then dismiss me already. I love her so much worx, unlike Dennis, 7.30am++ le still don't wanna let me off. Sometimes, still dare to mood swings. Iyo he arh... terrible larh. Today think because of that idiotic again, I lost my punch card. In the end asked Xue Ni to call Dennis cuz I p.s to call himto let him know that I lost it and ask if he's able to write a new record for me. After awhile, he called my hp and say... He: "JL, I found your punch card" [In a very elated tone]
Me: "Really arh? Where you found it?"
He: "Forgotten what he said le but is like wanna me reward him lidat"
Me: "Where you found it?"
He: "No lah, Xiao Zhu found it one"
Me: "Oh... then I should treat Xiao Zhu eat marhs."
He: "But now I help you keep one ley..."
Me: "You can don't keep for me marhs... Jin Mei can help me keep de"
He: "Iyo if I knew it earlier on... [Forgotten what he said again]
Me: "Haha..."
He: "Eee, never say thank you arh?"
Me: "Orh, thank you thank you"
He: "Iyo, lidat only arh?"
Me: "Hmm...?"
He: [Still waiting for my reward]
Me: "K lah, buy you dinner. You order I pay for you tonight"
He: "You got so good arh?"
Me: "Iyo, then what you want?"
Xue Ni added in say iyah kiss him lah kiss him lah
Me wanna use bottle to throw at her
Xue Ni: "What time liao, still don't wanna start work?"
Me: "Dennis, Xue Ni say you ley"
He: "Huh, what she say"
Me: "She say what time already still don't wanna start work"
He: "Haha... ok lah ok lah, don't chat with you already.Hee hee... " He very cute one, everytime joke with me. But he can mood swings one... just like what my closest kakis in school treat us. Kkx, wanna go orh orh lers. Hees, hope tonight got work so that I can buy them chocolate except Dennis cuz he headache mah. Plain water for him, hees.
I hope I'll luv myself more
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